i am suck

Why am I so noob…noob in managing the stupid relationship things…I nvr try n gv up…I dunx wat should i do the nxt…lots of shit install to my brain suddenly,I wanna gt off frm here…I dun wan mk him sad,I dun wan he changes any thing,I wanna b wit him,bt it seems gt lots of blocks infront of me…I nvr hv tis feeling to other guys even my x bf…why he is muslim,if he is x,then everything wil b settle up easily…I dunx wat to write…blur…………….